I dropped the littler girls off at school this morning; the sight of Avery slinging her arm around Fin’s shoulders, and Fin leaning into her undid me. I watched them walk, their bright raincoats like carousel horses, bobbing up and down. Red, aqua, gone and then back again. I held my hand out the window in case they turned.
So much of what I do is in case…a note in the lunchbox in case something happens to me. A whispered I love you in a sleeping ear, a fervent wish to make it echo for years to come in case I’m not there.
I’m not sure why everything feels so potent today, tears nipping at the corners of my eyes a persistent lump in my throat, and the tell tale sting in my nose as I switch the song as a sob pounds on the door.
I read you need to write every day, even if your words falter and a darkness blooms, and so I’m here. I’ve gathered ribbons of words from others, maybe written to cheer themselves, maybe for someone they loved.
Today I offer them here, for us. Draft off them, leap from them, quiet your hurt with them.
Tagged: sadness
So touching and beautiful and true. I especially the crack letting the light through. Going to pin that right NOW.
I was surprised by how much it resonated with me. I was searching for words that soothed my emotions and I am definitely a fretted about imperfections—yet I know it’s in the scar tissue where some of our most profound beauty springs. Glad you it moved you.
This is so, so lovely. I totally know the days when “darkness blooms” (and that’s an expression I love. And I’m often very comforted by the words of others (often, yours). xox
Thank you, truly.
Mmmmmm….standing there at the bus with you watching the colors walk away from us. I am with you here. 100%. xo S
Oh, Suzi, and you with your words, not so far down the path from where I am. Thank you for reassuring me of the hope.
Your words soothe my achey soul. Grateful for you. And them. xoxo
I’ve heard all of these quotes before but I really needed to be reminded of them today. I’ve had a string of days where everything feels so, yes, potent. To the point where I’ve been losing sleep from the heaviness of it all. Thank you for these words.
“Not sure why everything feels so potent today” — love the encapsulation of unbearably poignant feelings.