Posts tagged “working mom

Witching Hour

Posted on October 30, 2013

“What do you think the girls will remember about their childhood,” I asked Sean. We were on the couch and I’d been staring up at the wall, remembering the story behind each piece of wood. I thought about the nights I would work on it long after the girls had gone to bed, their favorite pieces painstakingly arranged for me to install. This wall has become our mark on this house and I wondered if it would stay with the girls. “The boat,” he said without hesitation. “I think they’ll remember the boat.” He stared off; I imagined he was thinking about the different memories of Lake George, some from his own childhood. Along the wall there are shelves, I looked at one with…

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Home and Back

Posted on October 11, 2013

I take the girls to the bus stop each morning and thenI drive to work. Each night we talk about our day at the dinner table, the time is usually filled with the girls’ stories, which never fail to require getting up from the table and going through very extended and physically dramatic retellings. It goes beyond hand talking to whole body retelling. Later, as we tuck them in, they brush their noses against mine, or trace their fingers along my face and say, “Tell me about your day. What did you do?” It can be so hard to explain. Did I really only write emails and take phone calls? It’s me asking this, not them, though I imagine they must wonder how that…

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I Went to Arianna Huffington’s House and all I Got Was This Entirely New and Satisfying Way to See Things and Order My Life

Posted on June 20, 2013

2013 is the year I’ll celebrate my 10th wedding anniversary, turn 40, and meet an early September day when all three of my daughters head off to school on the bus. Behind those milestones are things I hadn’t anticipated—closing our store, realizing that an 8 year relationship was over, and adult acne. It’s strange moving through this time of change, even more so when headlines strike like flint: Who Works Harder: Working Moms or Stay at Home Moms? Most Americans Say Kids are Better off with Stay At Home Moms Are You Leaning In Enough? Top Five Regrets of the Dying About a month ago I found myself uncomfortably tied in knots from wondering if I’d deprived the girls of something by working as…

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Never Been a Planner

Posted on May 31, 2013

I remember when we were putting our wedding together people said, “So what were you thinking?” I would stammer, all I was thinking was, “I just want to marry him. Isn’t that enough?” I didn’t have an iron clad vision of just how things needed to be, because in a sense they were already perfect—he’d asked me to marry him and I had said yes. Everything that was bound to follow the proposal was what I wanted, so I didn’t let the planning of the wedding bother or overwhelm me. My career has been similar to my wedding. I have never had a strong structure to my goals, rather I’ve dug into almost every position I have ever had to prove that there is more…

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Truth Hurts

Posted on May 22, 2013

A couple of months ago I made plans to take a day off to take Finley and her sisters, on the last pre-k field trip of the year. I had the niggling suspicion that things would not go as planned. Sure enough, my schedule at work started to grind and churn, each day feeling more and more like a log jam bearing down on me. When the field trip day came I made sure that everyone still wanted to go. Briar looked at me nodding, “Of course we do, Mom.” I smiled remembering her first day of school and the blur of firsts and lasts that followed. Avery looked up at me after lacing her shoes. “Yeah, I want to go, I can tell…

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