I read a post* the other day about not counting on someday. It got me thinking about how often I do things thinking they’ll be great memories to have years from now. 10, 20, 40 years from now as I sit beneath a fan on a porch (because oh, how I covet the idea of a porch with a fan. It’s just so deliciously unnecessary and wonderful). I remembered the moments when something took me by surprise and I genuinely reveled in that very moment. It’s a mistake to do it for another time, but keeping a grasp on how not a single moment is guaranteed is very nearly unsustainable.
Oer this Memorial Day Weekend I felt very close to grief, aware of loss. Tears threatened frequently and the lump in my throat accompanied us on our every move. I gave up fighting it and simply acknowledged that the weight of my blessings was going to sit firmly upon me. We played in sprinklers, ate dinner shoulder-to-shoulder at the table, chased butterflies and each other and went about spending the hours we were given in celebration.
Sitting at work today, the kiss of the weekend’s sun tickling my skin and the effort of the play making my muscles twinge and groan, I continue to be grateful. I think about women like Yvonne, and I wish that our consciousness of our blessings and the sacrifices of others were more consistently present.
We could try couldn’t we? Not someday, but this day, we can really try to begin to honor our lives and the value of others around us on a daily basis, can’t we?
*Thanks to Jessica for pointing me to the post.
Oh, yes, yes. I often think about this, how thin the line is between what we experience (and take for granted) every day and absolute catastrophe. And yet there is so much I take for granted. Oh, so much. Thanks for reminding me, at least for a moment, not to. xox
I think you are ahead of most in the way of gratitude. Loved your freckle post.
Thank you for directing me to Jay’s post. Powerful . . .
It was, wasn’t it?
I’m learning to live in the moment each day now, realizing that my daughter is growing “too fast”, I want to cherish every moment with her. These fleeting moments will soon elude me so, I’m taking each opportunity to cherish them while they’re within my reach. Someday is surely a far-off dream 🙂
Good for you!