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Sportin’ a Skirt

Posted on November 29, 2005

Being pregnant can present a number of challenges, not the least of which is the monumental task of getting dressed in the morning. You genuinely don’t know from one morning to the next what will fit. I have finally started to show and am in what I affectionately call the “fat chick at the bar” stage. My apologies to any portly bar flies who might be reading this. What I mean is that I am not obviously pregnant to folks that don’t know me and because I have a paralyzing aversion to the sailor collar, bell shirt, and general “Look at me, I am with child and virginal looking at the same time” style of maternity clothing, I end up wearing larger sizes of…

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Giving Thanks

Posted on November 28, 2005

Wednesday my boss sent me home from work at 4, “Happy Thanksgiving,” he said. Sean had my car as he had planned to pick Briar up early- we bought a forward facing seat a few weeks back and it lives in my car. It was cold, but not wet so I decided to walk home. I stepped outside my office, zipped up my coat, tucking my scarf in tight under my chin and started on my way. I took the main road, looking around and breathing in the energy that was charging through everyone around me – “HOLIDAY. VACATION. HOLIDAY. VACATION. FAMILY. FAMILY. FAMILY.” I can’t remember the last time it felt as if everyone in the world was just in synch. I don’t…

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I didn’t mean it that way.

Posted on November 23, 2005

Ever feel like you end up saying or thinking, “I didn’t mean it that way,” a hell of a lot more than is ok? Sean and I have been on parallel paths for a while now, and by parallel I don’t mean side by side or together, I mean doing separate activities at the same time. It’s necessity. It’s owning a small business. It’s being parents of a toddler. It’s the reality of living in today’s world.And above all that, it sucks. I miss him. He misses me. Briar misses him. It all translates to everybody being frustrated. Why is it that when what you want the most is to hug or talk or just be together little things getting the way and you…

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Conflicted

Posted on November 18, 2005

I have a little bit of guilt about my posts of late. There is of course still so much about Briar that I want to write about. My god, the pace of her development right now is staggering. I swear sometimes it feels like she grows physically by the minute and her character is just exploding each day. Our schedules are just so crazy right now. We get up between 6:30 and 7 (by we, I kind of just mean me.) Sean has been working until midnight and Briar prefers to sleep in. Anyway, get up, shower, get dressed, slip downstairs to make coffee and then wake Sean and Briar. Sean showers while Briar and I go down and get breakfast. Sean comes down…

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Proud Mama

Posted on November 17, 2005

Sean is in Albany for work.Briar is upstairs asleep.I’m bored, but not feeling inspired to write. Brace yourself for a ton of pictures that just make me smile. Blurry. Silly. Uneventful. Perfectly delightful. I am just completely, totally, impossibly infatuated with her. G’night.

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