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Trees are simple

Posted on December 13, 2007

Life, though amazing and wondrous of late, can be ever so complicated. This evening, just shy of seven o’clock, Sean was still at work, the girls were at the zenith of their nightly I-need-you-and-I-must-do-everything-at-an-eardrum-bleeding-decibel, I hit the proverbial wall. The ligaments holding this little Rockette wanna-be in my belly made themselves known, declaring it quitting time and leaving me feeling as if a 15 pound boulder might just base jump from my uterus and break through my pelvic floor (please don’t humiliate me in the comments by saying that what I have just described isn’t possible with the female anatomy, I take care of it, but I don’t totally grasp the whole architecture therein.) The chicken I’d set in the wok was sputtering, blazing…

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Categories: Me

To do list

Posted on December 11, 2007

Pick-up contacts at Pearl That was it. Looking back, it seems like that’s all it ever is. Three pregnancies, each with increasingly dry eyes, thus rapidly ripped contacts. Panicked trips to the shop, “Can you provide me with a test pair while we wait for the order to arrive?” followed by test contacts, and then repeated messages at the house, “Ahh, Amanda? Your contacts are here, in fact they’ve been in for weeks. I hope you aren’t still wearing those testers…” It’s embarrassing, so this time I swore I’d order them and pick them up quickly. Thing is, they never called, no reminders, other than my spidery red lines, ravaged left eyeball. Damnit. I told Sean I was going to get them, I repeated…

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Categories: Me

Me?

Posted on December 10, 2007

Pessimism has never been my bag, it just serves no purpose. Now with kids, and knowing how fleeting time really is, I want to waste as little time as possible. The last three years have been an exercise in cutting away all which does not enrich, no more time-sucks that create tension, no more friends that take, take take and a whole lot more things that bring joy, create memories and add meaning. There have been bright times and others not so bright, but through it all, we’ve been confident in knowing that we’ve been on the right path. I mentioned the other day that the path has been curving, reaching toward a new horizon that brought the promise of incredible opportunity. Today brought…

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Categories: Mama Sap, Work

Sweets, dreamin’

Posted on December 10, 2007

Our sweets, dreaming, together. That’s right, we’ve done it. Two girls.One room.One bedtime.Two nights running. Now, I’d be lying if I didn’t say there were a few episodes of hysterics last night, but all things considered (Read: Your many altruistic comments offering insight, empathy and condolences, as well as your own tales of shared bedrooms) it really wasn’t all that painful for anyone. Not that I am a proponent of bribing, though it has its places – the check out at the grocery storethe home office during an important callimmediately following the dropping of an f-bomb or other unsuitable-for-use-by-a-toddler- type languageand when you have to change course, delaying a promise Might I suggest for any of you parents considering a merging of rooms the…

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Categories: Love, Mama Sap

Pause Interrupted

Posted on December 8, 2007

I’d really been relishing the still, rolling the tangy excitement of suspense around in my mouth and luxuriating in toe curling “What will happen if I take this road?” and “What might be waiting down this path?” kind of wondering. It felt good to have opportunity sprouting up around me, but I can only be entertained with that kind of sitting on my hands type daydreaming for so long. Things are poised to change, and that is wonderful, but life mustn’t stop while the future takes it sweet time making itself known. So, what’s a pregnant, working multiple jobs, married to a small business owner and mother of two to do? Why tear down more walls of course! Yup, we done ripped out the…

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Categories: Love