Someone once said not to borrow trouble. I’m not sure who it was, but the sentiment makes a lot of sense. I went searching for a quote tonight. I thought I could find a quote to create a tidy little post, not too heavy, and not too revealing, but the perfect amount of “I’m struggling” and “I am learning everyone is struggling” and “let it be.” I’ve wanted to write for a few days, but responsibilities, mood, and timing kept me from doing so.
Damned if I couldn’t find a single thing that didn’t seem lazy, trite, or just not right. The truth is, I am struggling, everyone has some sort of struggle or pain, and the best we can do is let it all be. No need to borrow, plagiarize, or mail it in. I have a great life with peripheral troubles that mostly can be managed. Every once in a while something is brought into focus that makes me think, “Holy shit, I’ve had it all wrong” or “Good grief, I didn’t know how good I had it” or “I am scared.”
The truth is I have no wisdom on this. I am doing that adult thing of being torn between terror and taking it minute by minute. No matter what, I know that the best things in life are being present (not in a judgey stay off your phone way, but in a screw-ten-pounds-from-now or until-I-have-blank-number-of-dollars-in-the-bank, what I have now is awesome kind of way) and acknowledging you can’t control everything.
Yeah, it’s cryptic, a quote would’ve been better. Instead you get me, fretting and yet completely in love with my girls and the way they dive in and then explode back into a moment.
I guess all I needed to do here tonight is say thank you for being with me and I am wishing you happiness in the moment you are in.
Better than any quote. Sometimes real-ness is all that’s needed. Thank you for the reminder, it means more than you imagine. And that photo? Stunning.
Thank you. Yes, the photo, I am grateful for how it pulls me right in and takes me back to being carefree and swimming like a fish!
I’m wishing you the same happiness in each moment as well…there really aren’t any words to offer as you’re traversing this winding trail that has you out of sorts, but know that you’re in my thoughts and heart. Much love to you, Amanda, always.
(PS-have you tried Goodreads quote section? I always find that to be wonderful when I’m searching for inspiration or consolation.)
Love the Goodreads quotes, in this case it really was nothing was going to feel as right as the words I needed to get out, clumsy as they were.
I’m with you over the ethers…know that when you struggle, you don’t need to struggle alone. It will get better – I trust in that. Hugs.
I feel you and I thank you for it. Hope I can do the same for you.
That’s really all we can do, huh? Be happy in the moment. I’m trying. Love your words, as usual.
Sending you love too, friend. Love seeing your courageous words and loving family.
Posted at the perfect time. Much needed.
Cannot wait to buy you and your hubby dinner and thank you for the many ways in which your family and you specifically have been a treasure for us.